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A Friend Asks About the Last Thing that Made me Cry

I say I don’t remember,

embarrassed by the truth:

yesterday morning,

in the back of my work truck.

 

Boss asked what took me so long

to deliver Thursday’s mail—

I explained the wealthy neighborhood,

endless driveways & hidden boxes.

 

There were so many gates.

One door opened.

I saw a man I know from childhood.

His greeting took hours to reach me.

 

My father has never read a poem.

Gave up on me long ago.

I don’t understand what you do, he says.

Happy now there might be a pension.

 

I tell my mother I dread

the coming winter: black ice,

fumbling in the dark

with frozen hands.

Be grateful you are alive, she says.

Power through.

 

Which is exactly what I do.

Thank you thank you until

the sun rises up my core--

hits the locked door

of my throat. Suffocates.

 

Life looks away, disgusted

by how I have misunderstood.

Jaime Jacques

Jaime Jacques is a postie and a poet who currently calls the east coast of Canada home. Her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Rogue Agent, Variant Lit, Birdcoat Quarterly, Cheat River Review, Anti-Heroin Chic  and others. She is the author of Moon El Salvador and her reporting and travel writing can be found in Salon, NPR, Narratively, and Roads and Kingdoms among others. Find her on Instagram @calamity__jaime.

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